You wait to see her everyday, you get goosebumps when you see her. You long to be with her, yet you are so indifferent when she is around. There comes a time in everyone's life when you meet him/her, so did it come for me. Was I too future driven or was I too matured, was I too assuming, or was I conclusive. The signs with which any girl would be assured that the guy is not into her were my only signs for her.
1) I did not make a physical contact (no deft, I am not talking of the intimate physical contact), I am talking of the contact with which we show the affection we have for her. I did not hold her hands while crossing the road, nor did I touch her by the waist while entering a party.This was despite she leaned at me and cuddled for a touch and I was a fool to avoid any eye contact and maintained a constant distance.
2) I did not call her post 'our' dates, yes I know there is no excuse for not calling but I always had not one but many, one of which was (why should I call?) which is ofcourse a lil nasty. Though I liked her ( well like is a super diluted term for what I had for her) and wanted to talk to her but never did call her but always waited for her to call only for me to criticise her.
3) I criticised her like no one would have ever done, though that was for good she never realised it and I kept weakening my case by doing it everytime with even more force.
The above signs just shows that I was not at all into her, but that was not true so what went in my head for doing all this to someone I cried for, someone I wanted for the rest of my life, someone who was the angel of my eyes, and someone whose smile took away all my worries.
Why did I lose her then , why did I let her go, why dint I tell her how do I feel for her. These are the questions I'll never have an answer to or will I ?
